Friday, June 30, 2006

I Can't Make You Love Me (Bonnie Raitt)

I Can't Make You Love Me (Bonnie Raitt)

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
inside my head

Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
don't patronize

Don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't

I'll close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me

Morning will come
and I'll do what's right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and I will give up this fight

Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Let Them Speak For Me...

...as I am mute but the smile was left frozen, rather prematurely.



Clever As You
( Shiela and the Insects)



How did you run away?
Why did you end your smiles? Was it something I said
Or did I say things wrong? Your heart's now cold
I’m counting the miles
Til I see your face again
Have I hurt you more than I myself can bear


So tell me where to start
My sad stride froze
I could have loved you more
But my heart, I’m sure, is not as clever as you


Will my heart ever know or care where you’ve gone,
Where you've gone this time
And can I be as proud as regrets now I bear


So tell me where to start
I fear to try
I should have loved you more
But my heart, I'm sure is not as clever


Had I known then what you'd do
And cared for what I'd done
Too late I know


So tell me where to start
My sad stride froze
I could have loved you more
But my heart, I’m sure, is not as clever as you
Clever as you
Is not as clever as you

Limbo

What I cannot forget from seven hours ago are the words that were uttered.


Do you know how it feels to teeter on the brink of vertigo?


Do you know what terror I felt during that brief inquisition?


Or the same terror I felt when I held my breathe in this infinitesimal second before you blurted out the words to validate the uncertainty of what I was holding dear for the past four months?


No. I didn't think I was being unfair.


So I asked you to leave so you can contemplate if you will come back.


I'd said I'd wait.


I see my nails turning purple from the cold.


I see the color of heartbreak and regret.

I see you, no, I feel you slipping through my fingers like red silk ribbons clumped at one's feet cluttered with crumpled and discarded giftwrapping papers.

Discarded.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Molotov MP3

Got a copy of the Molotov MP3, thanks to Karen. (yes, I owe you dinner, dear).

Now have you any ideas how can I upload it as audio streaming?

Friday, June 23, 2006

Wow Naman. Sana Totoo.





IS SOME ONE IN LOVE WITH YOU
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Thursday, June 22, 2006

Molotov (Narda)

Molotov (Narda)

Hipan mo na ang salbabida
Basain mo na ang kontrabida
Magtanong ka ng direksiyon
Itutuloy namin ang misyon

Sinong nagturo ng leksyon?
Kahit lahat ay bakasyon?
Wala akong sinabing...
Mahal na mahal kita
Wala nang mapapala
Mahal na mahal kita

Sunugin na ang bandila
Sumabog na ang bomba sa Maynila
Sumama ka na sa prusisyon
Pumila sa pelikulang aksyon

Sinong nagturo ng leksyon?
Kahit lahat ay bakasyon?
Wala akong sinabing...
Mahal na mahal kita
Wala nang mapapala
Mahal na mahal kita

Enero, Pebrero, Marso, Abril, Mayo, Hunyo, Hulyo, Agosto, Setyembre...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Poor Baby

I admit it, I'm still my mommy's little girl (nope, I'm not a Daddy person despite the fact that I'm the youngest and the only girl in our family).
I haven't been home since about three weeks, and I am sorely missing my mom.
I miss her feeding me. Not that feeding my Polar Bear has been fun and satisfying but I miss my mom's cooking. As in.
I even miss her nagging me.
Yesterday, during my 15 minute break, I spent most of it on the phone talking to her. I was almost bawling when we were saying our goodbyes.
She was insisting that I come home this weekend but of course I can't because I have no money. I have this weird pride thing where I want to hand over something whenever I go home because since moving out, it was understood that I won't be included in the household budget anymore and that I should help them out whenever I could.
Which I wasn't able to for quite awhile because I can't seem to manage my finances lately (like regularization adjustments, debts I had to pay, etc...etc).
*sigh*

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Happy, Happy, Happy




Yesterday, I was able to claim my Waterboys DVD at the Makati Postal Office and I was jumping in excitement (Bought the copy at
Play-Asia by the way for $7.90) but to my dismay, the DVD does not work on Boa's X-Box because of regional limitations...sniff, sniff.

But still, I have my own copy! Yay!

I owe a lot to this movie, it made me laugh during one of my
darkest hours.

Somehow, it didn't matter na wala na akong pera. Hehe.

Also, last Sunday, Monyat and Karen (Boa was there as well) came over for breakfast and yes, we had fun gorging on ham and egg omellete, pan de sal, and one, huge stack of pancakes.

Karen and I went to MCS (Makati Cinema Square) and hunted for DVD's. We were able to find Cinema Paradiso (another yay!), Irréversible (as per Karen, the wrong CD was inserted inside the case. >.<), and The Unbearable Lightness of Being.

I also hoped Karen had fun browsing at the Japanese specialty stores at Waltermart. I'm just sorry we had to cut it short because I had a big teddy bear of a guy that I had to feed back home (snickers). Balik na lang tayo, Ling, promise.

1 and a half week to go before sweldo. Haay.


Monday, June 19, 2006

Let Me Sleep

not getting enough sleep is getting to me. i need more zzz's. please.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Head Over Feet (read: Yearning)




Wala na 'to. Okay. I admit it, I'm whipped. Pureed, even. Hehe. Basta.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

For More Lang

Ayan, gusto ko lang pagmayabang...Regular na ako. Yehey, yehey! Yun lang.

Walang maisip na entry.

Excited na sa Awit Awards.

Naiinip sa sweldo.

Pumepetiks sa trabaho kase naka-quota na.

Naghahanap ng MP3 o kahit man lang lyrics ng "Molotov" by Narda.

Inaantok.

And in Jhamie's words: yearning. (uy...lovesick fool)

Friday, June 09, 2006

Death Knell

It isn't enough for your heart to break because everybody's heart is broken now.
-Allen Ginsberg

I understand how you feel.

First and foremost, the cracks and splinters that decorate the entirety of my heart are the same ones that you have in yours.

I feel every throb. Every searing pain that each empty heartbeat brings which pitilessly resonates in the emptiness that his leaving might have brought upon you.

But I hope you also understand that the pain will someday dull. A blade exposed on the air for too long. The sharpness will recede and more scars will replace the older ones.

If there's is one thing that we have always been sure of is that in where we're at, nothing is ever permanent.


Same goes for pain, same goes for ecstasy. Even for love.


(for m.a.b.a.)

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Rushes


First of all, welcome little cutie. I guess the Magic 8 Ball and the Book of Answers were right.


Second of all, I just want to announce that we survived our first petty LQ.

More on my next post.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

The Mother of All BadTrips

I just learned a few minutes ago that there will be NO Fete De La Musique for this year.

How uncool is that? Down with the French Embassy in Manila!!!

Jay said that there will be the Jazzfest though.

Atleast, I'm pretty sure a certain pony-tailed and bearded bass-playing hottie will perform.

I think that'll be enough.

Upcoming gigs:

Moffatts presscon (thay are still alive and apparently here in Manila!!!!) on Saturday...

Chicosci album launch on Tuesday.