Tuesday, November 28, 2006


There's nothing like a seven day vacation leave from work to make me realize that I'm contemplating of resigning and switching to a more fulfilling job.

Hehe. Not again.

And I'm only kidding.

Despite the monotony, I love my job.

But of course, I need a break every now and then to keep myself from burning out, hence, the seven day leave.

With the new year dawning I'm finding a lot of things that I'm actually looking forward to.

And with this year ending, there were a lot of things and persons that I'm thankful for.

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Monday, November 27, 2006


I'll be back. soon.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

what i like

a poem by e. e. cummings

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite a new thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like,, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh....And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you quite so new

Friday, November 10, 2006


"Spring Snow" was my favorite "Sea of Fertility Tetralogy" by Yukio Mishima. I didn't know that they had it made into a movie starring the guys from Waterboys and Battle Royale as the lead characters! It's $47.50 dollars at Play-Asia....Waah! It'll be the best Christmas present. (wink! wink!)

Satoshi Tsumabuki as Kiyoaki Matsugae

Sosuke Takaoka as Shigekuni Honda


The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no diaster.
(Elizabeth Bishop, "One Art")

Everything seems to be okay right now. The doubts had subsided, somehow. But I'm still wary. Everything could still be taken away from me. I don't want to be caught off guard. I'll hang on as long as I could. As long as I'm able.

I'll hold you. Still.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

In Too Deep (Genesis)

All the time I was searching
Nowhere to run to
It started me thinking
Wondering what I could make of my life
And who'd be waiting
Asking all kinds of questions to myself
But never finding the answers
Crying at the top of my voice
But no-one listening

All this time
I still remember everything you said
There's so much you promised
How could I ever forget

You know I love you but I just can't take this
You know I love you but I'm playing for keeps
Although I need you I'm not gonna make this
You know I want to but I'm in too deep

So listen, listen to me
Oh you must believe me
I can feel your eyes go thru me
But I don't know why

Oh I know you're going
But I can't believe
It's the way that you're leaving
It's like we never knew each other at all
It may be my fault
I gave you too many reasons for being alone
When I didn't want to
I thought you'd always be there
I almost believed you

All this time
I still remember everything you said
There's so much you promised
How could I ever forget

You know I love you...

So listen, listen to me
I can feel your eyes go thru me

It seems I've spent too long
Only thinking about myself
Now I want to spend my life
Just caring bout somebody else

You know I love you...

Friday, November 03, 2006

I Hate You

Nothing more left to say. For now.