Little Pyscho Girl...You Need Help.

Hey, you psycho. Yeah, YOU. Try spreading your poison someplace else and see if anybody will still believe YOU. YOU are so sick. Go get yourself a psychiatrist. 09204727727? We all know who YOU are. YOU poor little psycho girl.

I am grateful

This past few weeks had really been stressful for me..financially, that is. I was doing okay, then suddenly I found myself shelling out money more than I am able to save some.

But things are getting better now.

So thanks to my friends. For listening and being there and making me laugh. Somehow it's enough.

My officemates, who had helped me...Robert in particular. The best ka talaga Papa Robert.

My mom, for helping me stay afloat while nagging me at the same time.

My bro's gf, Loresh who made it possible for me not to get evicted. =p.

And my sweet bottom (hehe) Boa for the reassurances and support throughout all this.

Really. I'm getting all choked up just writing about how lucky I am that I have all of Y O U.

Turning My Safety Off (Sino SiKat)

I love the song.

I Love Ally McBeal!

Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
(Vonda Shephard and Emily Saliers)



I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Am I mistaken do you say,
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow


You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

It's Never Too Late

Things I want to do before this year ends:

1. Read an entire book, while sitting on a cafe, alone. (inspired by Jessica Zafra)

2. Play soccer at Sikad.

3. Perform onstage. Kahit maliit na stage and audience lang. And since we're on the subject...

4. Tumalon sa gitna ng moshpit...because sometimes, I just want to die. Hehe.

5. Get out of Manila. Kahit 1 week lang. Read: Getaway.

6. Get my picture taken. Yung maganda talaga. With make up, and lighting and nice background and everything. Yung pwedeng pa-blow up ng 8"x10"

7. Give my mother something nice this Christmas..for a change.

8. Not be absent or late for a whole month.

9. Eat vegetable for a week.

10. Learn how to curse in 10 languages.

Thomasian Meme (i wanna go back..waah!)

got this from innocently_jaded

ANO'NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2000-001538

NAKAPASA KA BA OR WAITLISTED?
Pasa.

PANO MO NALAMAN ANG ENTRANCE EXAM RESULT?
Through the UST website

FIRST CHOICE MO BA ANG UST?
Yep. It's my only choice.

ALAM MO BA ANG USTET SCORE MO?
Hiningi ko ata sa guidance noon. Nakalimutan ko na. (ako rin)

ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
AB Political Science

SECOND CHOICE?
BS Civil Engineering (hehe, ambisyosa)

ANO COURSE NA NAPILI MO?
Literature (hihi.)

INISIP MO BANG MAG-SHIFT?
Hindi.

CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
Yata.

TAGA-UST High School KA BA?
Nope.

NAG-ENJOY KA BA SA RECOLLECTION?
ah...not really.

SAANG GATE KA PUMASOK NUNG FIRST DAY?
Dapitan gate.

NAKAPAG-DORM KA NA BA?
Summer of 2003

NAKA UNO KA NA BA?
Yep.

NAGKA-5?
Hehe. 2x. (Rational Psych at Spanish 2)

HIGHEST GRADE:
1.00

LOWEST:
5.00

WORST EXPERIENCE SA UST:
None that I can remember.

LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Madalas akong pumasok. =p.

ANO'NG ORG MO?
1st-3rd year: ABFC, 3rd-4th year: UST Litsoc

MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
None.

NANGANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
For a minute or two, yeah, I did.

KELAN KA NAGTAPOS?
2004

FAVE TEACHER:
Sir Oca Campomanes, Ma'am Pasricha, Ma'am Pepin, Ma'am Suzy, Sir Lino Baron (si Cleopatra ang Serpent of the Nile!), Ma'am Tanlayco, Ma'am Cynthia Rivera

WORST TEACHER:
all my theology professors. ick.

FAVE SUBJECT:
Lit Theory and all the subjects I took under Sir Oca.

WORST SUBJECT:
All the math ones. Theology.

FAVE LANDMARK SA UST:
Central Library (3rd and 5th floor), Colayco, AB Pav/s, Tinoko park, UST Soccer field

BUILDING:
Library

PABORITONG KAINAN:
BRB, Merrie's, Lisa's, Almer's, Yung sisigan sa may Barlin street.

ESTUDYANTE BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
Hindi eh.

LAGI KA BA SA LIB?
Yep, 3rd and 5th floor mostly. At sa internet section.

NAGPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
Lagi akong nasa clinic, lalo na pag injured.

MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
Madami. I'm not a pathological flirt for nothing. =p.

BF/GF?
Both. Ahahahahaha.

MAY BALAK KA BA MAG-MASTERS O MAG-PHD?
Sana.

ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING P.E. MO?
Excused ako. Hehe. Varsity perks.

KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Okay lang. b5. HIndi ko sila masyadong ka-close. I was a mere shadow. Mas enjoy ako sa 3lit-4lit.

NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION SA UST?
My own graduation.

MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG?
First and last few lines...ng chorus.

MEMBER KA BA NG UST VARSITY TEAM?
=p

SINO ANG PABORITO MONG UAAP BASKETBALL PLAYER?
Si Dale Singson.

NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Meron naman ata.

ANO'NG AYAW MO SA FINALS WEEK?
Pag hindi ako nakapag-aral.

DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
Marunong nakong uminom..pero marami pa rin akong natutunan. Hehe. Tulad ng pagsuka sa ice bucket.

DITO KA BA NA-DEVIRGINIZE?
hinde. period.

ANO'NG GUSTO MO SA UST?
cheap eating places, its history, the people.

ANO'NG AYAW MO?
pag umuulan.

BUMILI KA NA BA SA SHOP SA SPORTS COMPLEX?
P.E. uniform

MAGANDA BA ID PIC MO?
Keri.

MAY GINAWA KA NA BANG ILLEGAL SA LOOB NG CAMPUS?
Matulog sa bench? Hehe.

Recluse

The one thing that we yearn for in our living days,
that makes us sigh and groan and undergo sweet nauseas of all kinds,
is the remembrance of some lost bliss
that was probably experienced in the womb
and can only be reproduced (though we hate to admit it)
in death.
-Jack Kerouac "On The Road"

I posited myself four two whole days in the four-walled enclosure that I've been calling home for the past 10 months. It's not as if I planned to. I had plans that fell through and I had places that I didn't feel like going to at the last minute.

I just watched Alias on DVD, one episode after the other.

There were people that dropped by which forced me to go out and forage for food and when they left I continued watching Alias.

I watched and waited.

And waiting is an agony on its own.

And to be with him means I would have to get used to waiting while treacherous ghosts and pangs of irrational jealousy danced cruelly in my head.

I don't want it to be that way.

I don't want to get used to his embrace only to feel suffocated once I'm given the space.

There must be something that I can still claim for myself.

Bravado

Who's getting scared?

I am.

Didn't really think it would come to this.

Infinity (Merrick)

I love Grey's Anatomy...this song was featured in the ep "Deny, Deny, Deny"...to listen to the song, search for the song here

We are all like astronauts
Discovery, infinity
Take my empty body
And discover me, infinity
Forgive the endless longing
So it's crazy you and crazy me

I am
I am
I am
I am
I am infinity

We are all like astronauts
The little prince I want to please
Nevermind your habits absolutely
You encourage me
Forgive the endless longing
So it's crazy you, crazy me

I am
I am
I am
I am
I am infinity

Doesn't matter anyway
He is longing anyhow
Doesn't matter anyway
He is longing anyhow

We're wasting up our lips
They're interlocking, we are centipedes
Take this to the floor
It's interstellar with our blue-black needs
Forgive the endless longing
So it's crazy you, crazy me

I am
I am
I am
I am
I am infinity

Doesn't matter anyway
He is longing anyhow

One For School Pride!

Everything has already been said but I'll say it once again:

UST Growling Tigers rock!

I've always been a proud Thomasian, it never waivered even though the basketball team had its losing streak (there's more to being a Thomasian than basketball, you see), but I'm prouder than I've ever been right now.

Thanks to my boy Boa for the every second update that he gave during Game 3. (lablab kita! =p)

And to those fellow Thomasian at USTExchange for their tireless updates as well.

United we stand, eh?

Went back last night and saw the architectural changes.

Can't say that I'm happy with it. Then again, it's beyond my control.

There's one thing that I liked though, the huge screen at Espana street that shouts: "Welcome to UST, the Home of the Growling Tigers."

Wow. Just wow.