Destitution (part 2)

Finally. I've done it. Tied the sheets and jumped out of the window. Packed my bags anf left the haven that I called 'Home' for the last 22 years and moved into a high-rise condo that is so cold (my studio being posited on the 12th and last floor) that my bones rattle every time the chilly night wind blows into the open window.

I just miss my family so much sometimes, especially my mom. But as Jhamie said, everybody has to grow up sometimes. Since I don't have that Peter Pan complex that most of my friends seem to have, moving out is not such a big deal.

But it didn't help that I spent my first two weeks as an independent woman in destitution. I had to pay off some debts (still am, actually) that I had resorted to scamming food off my officemates (which I intend to pay back on the 15th). I realized that preparing for the hard times is very important that's why I applied for a credit card after badly missing my weekly ration of Hazelnut Caramel Mocha Frapp at Starbucks.

Butof course, I daresay that I'll get the hang of the fine art of budgeting my finances someday, and it's a good thing that my office is just a stone's throw away from where I live.

Characters:

My current residence is niche for different individuals but there a few characters that I really can't help but write about.

1. Lotus Feet- I always pass by this unit whose always leaving their door half opened but with freaky chains on their door. One time, I actually saw this old Chinese lady peering on the edges, staring at me as I passed by. Creepy.

2. Peeping DOM- When you look out our unit's window, there will be an old Chinese guy staring back at you. ALL THE TIME. This prompted my dad to put up some blinds in the window. I dont' know if he's still there staring or not.

3. Pre-pubescent with active sex lives- This one is unsettling, one time I was wandering on the rooftop wanting to check out the gym when I saw a couple making out. To give them some privacy, I quietly exited the area but when I was waiting for the elvetaor and the aforementioned couple went down as well, I saw that they were just a couple of elementary students. Jeez, talk about growing up fast.

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Finally, Freefall now has a schedule for our get together, and as Lea puts it, "wasakan na" on the 22nd.

Gushing in excitement. I missed my friends so much.

Destitution

Pretty depressed right now.

My financial resources are utterly depleted.

I have so many things that I want to scream about, I just don't have the energy.

Give me a couple of more days.

Greetings!

Well, this is a belated Christmas Greeting and an advance Happy New Year's to all people who've touched my goddamned f-ing life!

Thank you for making another year a memorable one for me!

Looking forward to another year of whatever-ness!

=p

Para Sa'yo (Parokya ni Edgar)

Lumayo ka na sa akin
'Wag mo kong kausapin
Parang awa mo na
'Wag kang magpapaakit sakin
Ayoko lang masaktan ka
Malakas ako mambobola

Hindi ako santo

Pero para sayo
Ako'y magbabago
Kahit mahirap
Kakayanin ko
Dahil para sayo
Handa akong magpakatino
Laging isipin
Lahat ay gagawin
Basta para sayo

Hindi ikaw ung tipong niloloko
At hindi naman ako yung tipong nagseseryoso
At kahit sulit sana sa'yo ang kasalanan
Lolokohin lang kita

Kaya kung pwede wag nalang

Dahil ayoko nang masaktan ka
'Wag kang maniniwala
Hindi ako santo
Pero para sayo
Ako'y magbabago
Kahit mahirap
Kakayanin ko
Dahil para sayo
Handa akong magpakatino
Laging isipin
Lahat ay gagawin
Basta para sayo

Bakit nakikinig ka pa?
Matatapos na ang kanta
Pinapatakas na kita mula nung una stanza
Hindi ka ba natatakot?
Baka ikaw ay masangkot sa mga kasalanan ko

Pero para sayo

Ako'y magbabago

Kahit mahirap

Kakayanin ko

Dahil para sayo

Handa akong magpakatino

Laging isipin

Lahat ay gagawin

Basta para sayo

This Chicken Has Flown The Coop (or will be) and Other Updates

I think my roommate and I have already found a perfect place. It's this studio-type condo at Citiland 8 along Buendia. The rent is a little steep but it is fully furnished so that's one less thing to worry about. Will still spend Christmas here at mi casa de familia, but I'm moving outta here as soon as the year's over.

I just don't know how feeling a tad guilty fits in here, but for some reason, it feels like I'm throwing away the support system that is my mother. Of course, she's still her 'you'll-never-gonna-make-it-without-us' standard spiel but after offering some stuff from our house to set up in my new place, the condescending barbs belies the fact that she will still miss me (and I, her).

Thinking about it, growing up in a household full of boys, its inevitable that my mother and I will always stick up for each other sans the Electra-complex, so I feel really bad about leaving her behind with only a moody teenager (a cousin), and two stinky boys (my two brothers) to live with.

But yeah, life moves on, and as my second brother said before he got married 8 years ago, you'll know when it's time to go.

And I guess, for me, this is the time.

Sniff.

I'm just gonna miss my mom's cooking especially her mean pork giniling and For-New-Year's-Only Lasagna.

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Work is okay. That's all I'm ever gonna say about it.

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I miss my friends, and I hope we all get together soon and do something about or long-pending website.

Same goes for my former officemates.

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I hate rejecting cool music assignments but I'm glad my editor still loves me enough to give me assigments that won't conflict with my work schedule.

And yeah, I miss covering events with JayDj. O sige na nga, pati si Jhamie.

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I guess that's it...I hope everybody will have a happy Holidays!