Friday, July 23, 2004
ouch...im still hurting...gagging over a mouthful of cotton soaked in my blood. karen commented i must be in vampire-heaven right now, but my blood doesn't taste sweet. it tastes of salt mixed with copper. but it's not so bad. a bitter way of reminding me that bliss is not everything, that it could be found even in the deepest sorrow. you have to taste pain and it will not get better, despite what everybody says. you will have to keep biting the blood-soaked cotton until it cannot absorb anymore or your own blood runs out.