24 (for real)

Happy 24th Biological Birthday To Me

Turning 24 ain't all that bad...I'm just a year older.

I'm moving back to my parents home less than two weeks from now.

Hopefully, a year after, I will move in to my permanent home.

I'll be 25 then. Which, I think, wouldn't be so bad at all.

See? Steady lang.

Hifi Indios

Proud of you, brother!


This was uploaded via Youtube. My big brother Reggie's (the guitarist) band, Hifi Indios was the guest band during a segment at that Studio 23 show "breakfast."

Damn proud, man! Damn. My brother deserves it.

Love High

It's been 11 months...


...and the oxytocin hasn't run out yet.

I'm just so sick-in-the-guts in love right now.


Song taken from the Serendipity OST





When You Know
(Shawn Colvin)


When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.
And you know that you know.

Champions!

Buhay na Buhay ang Barangay!!!





Pakshet lang at wala kAmeng TV..pinagtiyagaan ko na lang 'to..Maraming salamat sa nag-upload.


GI-NE-BRA!!!!!

Wow...New Tori

This is the source of my excitement

It's the cover for Tori Amos' upcoming album, "AMERICAN DOLL POSSE"

To all Tori-philes out there...let's support this one here, shall we?

Strange (Tori Amos)

Strange (Tori Amos)

strange
thought i knew you well
thought i had read the sky
thought i had read a change
in your eyes to strange
woke up to a world
that i am not a part
except when i can play
it's stranger
after all what were you really looking for
and i wonder when will i learn
blue isn't red everybody knows this

and i wonder when will i learn
when will i learn
guess i was in
deeper than i thought i was
if i have enough love
for the both of us

"just stay"
you said "we'll build a nest"
so i left my life
tried on your friends
tried on your opinions.
so when the bridges froze
and you did not come home
i put our snowflake
under a microscope
after all what was i really looking for
and i wonder when will i learn
maybe my wish knew better than i did
and i wonder so strange now
i'm finally in
the party has begun
it's not like i can't feel you still
but strange what i will leave behind
you call me one more time
but now i must be leaving

We Did

We Did

Oh yes we did it. Boa and I are now proud owners of a 34 square meter condo unit at Cambridge.
I'd post some pics of our future home as soon as he sends 'em to me. I can't believe it. Still.

(Btw, Monyat and Us will live on the same building, she will be just two floors down)

Farce

Farce

Sometimes, you'll think you know a person. You have memorized every inch of their physical being. You can decipher what their sighs mean.

But they can still lie.


They would be something that they are not.


And when you do realize that, you'll be thankful for the splitting head ache it would cause.


It's less painful than feeling your heart split into two.

Valentine's

Cheesycake

I don't know where I get my romantic streak. I used to have an allergic response to anything remotely related to the usual iffy things couples do like monthsaries...weeksaries...or daysaries or what have yous.

Yesterday was Valentine's Day, and despite the text messages that was coming in, I didn't reply to any of those. I only greeted my mom, through the good old landline and my dad via email.

Boa was asking me the day before if we want to celebrate, I said I don't want the hassle. It's definitely going to be traffic and crowded. Two things that we both detest.

I told him that I'll just cook dinner at home and that's it.

I was even supposed to be with my friends and have dinner at Venetto but due to my lack of rest, I didn't think that my body would've handled the commute.

Anyway, as I was grocery shopping an idea for a candlelit dinner struck me and I relished the porspect of seeing Boa's face as he steps into the house.

So once I got home, I cleaned like a madwoman (which I usually am), took out all the candles that was saving for blackouts and placed them on small glasses filled with water and placed them strategically around the room. I cooked this pasta recipe that I've concocted, and bought delicious blueberry cheesecake for dessert.

Around he 6:40 pm, he knocked, and I, all scrubbed and showered opened the door.


He was definitely surprised and contrite at the same time because he didn't get me anything at all. (Sometimes men are really clueless about women. Hehe. The battle never ends).

But we had a nice night. We just talked and watched the candles until they burned and sputtered out.

And when he kissed me good night. He thanked me for dinner and he told me that he loves me.

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

Love Shack Update

Love Shack Update

I've already seen the place. I fell in love in with it. The environment was good. The space would be just right for me and Boa. It's cheap. And despite what most people had to say about it, there wasn't any traffic at all. Boa had yet to see it, but come Saturday after viewing the place, we would decide right then and there to pay the downpayment.

I'll be staying at Citiland until the 15th of March. I'll be moving back home for one year before we can move in at Cambridge.

For some reason and to our surprise, my family approved. Some of my friends did as well. But some had reservations. They think that we're moving way too fast.

Boa and I had a whole lot of talk about this. We have decided how to handle the finances. We talked about other possibilities such as what if we split up. Everything was pretty much laid out in the open. We can talk, talk, and talk some more but we have both decided that we will and can do this. It is an enormous issue, but I daresay that it's something that is not impossible.

So...I'll let y'all know for sure after Saturday what happens.


Crossing my ten fingers.

Hottie Alert

Backtrack

I'm really happy with Boa but a part of me will always feel something for things such as these. Some things never really change.

No Signs of It

No Signs of It
(Natalie Grant)


It's a long wait at the gate
just to glimpse your fate
just to see whether it all works out
It's a long road, a heavy load
You gotta really want to go
and just let the others walk around
you now

up and down again
but this time it's different
it took some waiting to straighten
out the bend
In and out of luck
yeah at times it was difficult
I got a new life baby, It takes some getting used to but...


No sign of any rain
My skies are clear today
I keep bracing for that hit
But there's not sign of it.
No obstacles in sight
My skies are clear tonight (My skies are full of light)
I keep thinking I might see that cloud arrive
Oh but there's no sign of it
No sign of it

And as I look around, it's all new ground
the leaves on the trees touch down
But I'm above weightless as a dream
It's been a long road, a heavy load
I just simply had to go
Had to get here hard as it's been

No sign of any rain
My skies are clear today
I keep bracing for that hit
But there's not sign of it.
No obstacles in sight
My skies are clear tonight (My skies are full of light)
I keep thinking I might see that cloud arrive
Oh but there's no sign of it
No sign of it

In and out of luck
yeah at times it was difficult
I got a new life baby, it takes some getting
used to but...

No sign of any rain
My skies are clear today
I keep bracing for that hit
But there's not sign of it.
No obstacles in sight
My skies are clear tonight (My skies are full of light)
I keep thinking I might see that cloud arrive
Oh but there's no sign of it
No sign of it

Excited

One Giant Leap

There's no way to say this gently so I'll blurt this right out.

I'm (we're) buying a house!!!!

"We" in that statement means me and Boa...and it would depend on how we work it out. Because even if he won't like the place (located somewhere in Pasig), I'd still get a unit for myself for investment purposes and to have a property under my belt that I can claim as mine..all mine. It would be something that I've earned for myself...(I love this certain bravado...where is it coming from?)

How scary and grown up is that?

I found this good deal about Cambridge Village from my friend Anna, (Monyat already had a unit!) where I won't have to shell hundreds of thousand for the downpayment and the payment terms would allow for me to pay it off in ten years. Based on my calculation, I'd pay as much as I'm paying right now for the place that I'm renting and at least after 10 years, the property would be mine or ours, again, depending on how Boa and I work the thing out.


Of course, I'd still have to check out the place (Conrad, Toni, and I have a scheduled tripping on Monday) and would have to show the place to my kin and would have lots of discussion with my dad to get his approval but the upside is after 10 years, when I'm 34 or 35 I'm already done paying for the thing.

Another option is to have it rented out to pay for the amortization...but I would love to live in a place of my (our) own. This is exciting. Really.

It would force me to be employed and stop job-hopping, which is very much okay. Imagine a hefty retirement package...hehe.

I would love to do this with Boa so that my financial burdens would ease up but I keep on thinking about that Vaughn/Aniston film...."The Break Up," or something like that. That, in itself, warrants another long discussion. I'm being a realist here...who can really tell if Boa and I are meant to be there for the long haul. A lot can happen and unhappen overtime. As always, I'm keeping my bases covered. If that's at all possible.

So I'll give another update after Monday then...

A house of my (our) own....wow.

Boring

A Lame-ass Entry

Yes. I already told Monyat that I'm a self-proclaimed boring lame-ass. I've skipped a whole lot of bonding and inuman sessions (both alcoholic and caffeinated ones) with my friends. My career as a music-writer is now a thing of the past. Fun, for me, right now is balancing my checkbook, budgeting my money, grocery shopping, keeping house, whipping up semi-edible pasta dishes, and watching FRIENDS on DVD one season after another.

I think I've morphed into a sub-par Ma. Ailil Alvarez (my best friend) minus the bi-weekly relationship dramarama and the razor-sharp intellect.

Don't get me wrong.

It might be lots different from the nomadic life I used to live but right now, I'm sort of tired.

Settling down in my own space seems like a comfort that not even a shot of vodka can satiate right now.

For some reason, domesticity had been natural although not an easy thing to swallow at times.

The novelty of living with someone and being responsible for myself has not lost its thrill yet so my relationship with my friends have taken a major backseat which is the only thing I apologize for in this huge melodrama which is my life.

Sooner or later I'd be sure to get bored with all this. The starry-eyed look on my face will be wiped off and replaced with the bitter tang of spiteful words that will lash out of me when Boa and I hit a rough patch.

Maybe I'd crack once the thrill has died down...when everything starts becoming tedious again, and the only way to get through it is to d(r)own it with alcohol and write pseudo-existentialist angst on this blog.

After all, everything is a vicious cycle. I will not dispute that.

We can't have it all.

But I am welcoming this small measure of peace.

Until it lasts.

24

24

Having February as my birthday month warrants me a special license to do whatever the hell I want to do.

Heck, I'm turning 24.

But I won't do that.

For the next three months:

1. I'll stop whining.


2. I'll stop from involving myself in gossip and office intrigues. (But I won't let go of my addiction to Hollywood intrigues. It's the only vice I can afford right now that's not self destructive)


3. I'll try to be more positive and happy.


4. I'll spend more time with my family and friends.


5. Read the books that I've bought but haven't cracked open yet.


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There. That should keep me busy for this entire month.